Tuesday, November 30, 2004
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Last few days has been great, the time was spent in a great way. Which leaves me with only 1 small problem.... STILL NO JOB!!! N with that comes ANOTHER small problem...NO MONEY!!! Need to find a partner... Maybe rob a bank... Yan? Amcam? Mau join kapa? NS gaji very de small u noe... Can never be enuf... Braper banyak CHOCOLATE kiter bole beli ngan duit tu....
Well, thinkin bout goin to top-up my CPF account... so sayang wanna put in 50 bucks.... tapi, TERNYATA i have to do it to get the $400... When i receive it oredi, only THEN i can 'open table'... SAJIKAN everything... HIDANGKAN... TAK ELOK la if spend all of it on myself kan...
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7:23 AM
Friday, November 26, 2004
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I believe that every1 should have dreams. Big or small, they dont matter... Those dreams give us hope to live life the way we want it. No dreams are impossible to achieve. Of course, we shouldnt dream of having super-powers or anything like that, those are fictitious dreams. We should dream bout a happy home, a happy family n a great future. Those are the things we should strive for. That is why i'm a dreamer... I crave for all those things n more... I wanna be a chef someday, a great 1... I wanna be able to show ppl wat i'm capable of... Things are tough now, n even i'm a bit skeptical, but i hope someday, i will make it. Hell, i may not even come close, but just thinkin bout my dreams keep me happy. What have i got to lose right?
We should only want the best for ourselves. I know i do. I only want the best. That's how i am. Want the best in everything, n i try my best to get what i want. The best friends, the best relationship with the best girl i can find, the best job for myself.... I already have those friends, n i already have the best girl, so that leaves me with a job to find... I didnt have the best education, n that was my fault, but somehow, i dont regret it. Coz if i did, i wouldnt be here now, surrounded by all these people i love n adore. Always see things in a positive manner... People love me the way i am, n i love myself the way i am, n even if i change, i'm still gonna be that FITRI that every1 loves...i know it.... We cant run from changes, we will go through change in our lives. Some are good, some are bad, but we'll still learn to live with all the changes affecting us... So what's the point of fretting over 'em? Live with it n use 'em to our advantage, that's what i say...The grass isnt always greener on the other side u know... Treasure what u have, n things will work out fine...
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2:50 PM
Thursday, November 25, 2004
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Feeling like a LOSER now... No job, no money, no food...hungry lah...heheh... y did they all have to leave me w/out food? Y? Y?
Have to realie start looking for a job... This cannot go on... Have to fend for myself... Dont wanna be a JANTAN CABRET!! Mighty pissed with myself now...
N usop, i'll think bout the KL trip... Boring w/out me? hahahah... I'll be there with u guys in spirit... hahahah
Ok, no mood oredi... some things are buggin me now... Hungry... n worried... Where can i find a job? WHERE???
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11:37 PM
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Well, its been more than a week since my previous update... Did an update, but dunno y the damn thing cannot be viewed...stupid...waste my 'jerking off' time only...heheheh
Well, Raya wasnt all tat bad...got $41...but gone in a few days...heheh...Watched SUTTER n damn it was....eerrr... scary? no lah... but very the terkejut2 noe...anjat boboy!!
din werk since RAYA... clear leave oredi...YAHOO!! I miss my mates...tats all i can say, so i was mighty glad wen i met them at yan's open house this past sunday. Thanx YAN!! U the man!! I had fun, but i'm sorry if we were all a bit noisy n rowdy...
Well, the highlight of the week is my sweetheart...spent most of the time either with her or sms-ing her... well, its official now, n tat officially makes me the luckiest guy...if not on earth, then the luckiest guy in 4th Div? heheh... Well, i'm a lucky guy, i noe... Lucky to be loved by her... Thanks HONEY... I spent the most wonderful days with her... Who would have thought...This 'budak kecik' would get her attention n look where we are now... Spending time in each other's arms... *sigh* so spread the word!! Fitri's in love!! Yan, tell every1 we know, she's out of bounds!! Coz she's my baby... ooppss, sorry... MY baby... the BEST... the ONLY... MY sweetheart... my adorable lil makcik... *kiss* I LOVE YOU!!!
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2:42 AM
Sunday, November 14, 2004
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Its Raya morning, & I cant sleep... Feels like i achieved sumthin this Ramadhan, but still feel incomplete. Got back at ard 4 juz now n starightaway charged my HP. Biasalah, mlm raya kan bz, org asyik nak kasi msg 'Slamat Ari Rayer' la, call la....hai...mcm2...heheh...Sampai flat battery aku kena bantai...
Ni nak tgu org dtg sumer ni yg tak suka ni...jumpa da setahun sekali, bebual pon tidak...nak kena minta maaf ke? Mcm buang karen je... Kalau dpt duit raya takpe jugak...kehkehkeh...But i guess its fine, since every1 else is doin it as well. This is a time when every1 will be coming and as usual, I'll either be outside or eksyen tido, juz to avoid goin ard n minta maaf to those ppl i'm not realie close with... Anti-social? Well, i'm not gonna stick ard to listen to makcik2 kepo go PET PAT PET POT...
Speakin of makcik2 reminds me of sum1...wateva i do now seems to remind me of this sum1...Hope u havin a great time...eerrr...not NOW la, now is time to continue sleepin, but later la... Hope u have fun n have a great day givin out zakat...save 1 for me k? Or maybe save 4 for me? heheheh
Ok, Yan, aku nak susun sumer 20 jari jemari aku(ngan kaki skali...heheh) utk mintak maaf sekira nya aku ader buat salah ngan kau sepanjang persahabatan kita, sekiranya ader terkasar bahasa ke, dari segi gurauan ke(biasalah jgak...aku kan kasar bila gurau, mulut pon very de laser hor?) dan aku harap, Syawal ni akan mencurahkan....eerrr...ape2 yg baiklah utk kau...aku tak biasa la nak cakap2 gini...heheh...paham2 je la... n aku maafkan kau, kau memang banyak dosa kat aku...heheheh...suka? Tepuk tangan...ah...Joget... Eh'ah...Eh'ah....
N now, for my sweetheart...
Saya ingin mengucapkan SELAMAT HARI RAYA, MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN sekiranya adakala tercakap kasar, tergurau melampau, tertengok secara tak senonoh(pervin) terpegang ke dan bila2 tersinggung perasaan. Maafkan lah jika sekiranya hati awak sanggup menerima penjelasan ini...(ntah aper aku bebual pon aku da tak tau...pressure la...maklumlah, biasa bebual ENGRISH) Semoga Syawal ini membawa seribu makna, harapan dan kebahagiaan untuk awak dan keluarga...AMIN...*cium kaki* Wah, mcm criter hindustan la...heheh
So to all, SELAMAT BERHARI RAYA ye!!! Jgn curi ketupat, BERDOSA!!! heheheh...Nak mintak, jgn curi... Kalu ader zakat spare, ingatlah pada yg tiada...seperti kawan saya ni satu...FITRI...kesian dia... Kalau anda tergerak hati ingin menolong dia, kasilah zakat2 anda kepada saya, saya akan hantarkan kepada insan yg mulia itu... Dia pun dah tak lama lagi hidup, dah nak mampos da... Terima kasih....
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6:32 AM
Saturday, November 13, 2004
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YAAY!! Last day of posa oredi! Even if i nvr posa today, tat makes it only 3 days i nvr posa u noe! New Record! heheh...so shld i? nah...later 'MAKCIK' scold... heheheh
Got my sandals yesterday, bought em at Beetle Bug. Wasnt exactly my taste but OK la... Last minute mah... Wan, kalau org ketawakan aku pakai sandal tu, mati kau...Tapi takpe, pasal kau banyak sangat buat salah ngan aku, so takpe, aku maafkan kau la setan... macamaner aku bole beli baju GIORDANO tu pun aku tak tau...ni sumer KAU nyer pasal...Kau dengan bapak kau pun sama jgak...kaki psycho...kekekek...
went to Geylang last nite...not realie tat many ppl la, but quite warm if i may say so....mot complainin...juz a comment k... But even the reality TV show SURVIVOR cannot get thru the challenge we were given... Xchange baju at a shop located ard the SIMPANG, beside a KEDAI BUNGA which is near a kedai jual CHENDOL & there's a kedai selling KEBAB. 3 times ulang alik u noe...still cannot find...hahah... biler tanya tau ke tak bila kat dlm train, "tau, tau.." cets...memandai je...heheheh...so wat to do? Do some shopping of our own la! hahah...So it was squeezing thru the throngs of bargain hunters to get brooch la(nak yg mahal je...yg murah2 tak lawa...), tissue covers la, hindustan la, apam balik la...aper lagi eh? isy, teringat pasal Geylang naik berpeluh plak boboy...heheh
well, so this year, i celebrate ramadhan with buyin onlywat i NEED for raya... 1 pair of baju kurung, 1 pair of sandals...tats it...The rest i bought were juz something to stuff my face with n biasala, 'masok angin kluar asap'... hehehe... Well, i had a good time last nite... well, good IS an understatement...take ur pick...great? terriffic? or lovely? heheheh... SELAMAT HARI RAYA!!!!! *blows kissess all around*
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10:25 AM
Thursday, November 11, 2004
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There are gonna be times wen u feel sumthin inside of u, wen u're not even sure wat it is tat u feel, but there is 1 thing tat u noe...u're happy... Well, tats how i feel now. Maybe not just happy..elated would be a more appropriate word...
Well, its sumthin i've been waitin for, so i guess tats y i'm so happy... Or is it coz its Hari Raya today?
heheh...i woke up late, din go sembahyang la...Maybe i shld go "jalan-jalan"...heheh...How? Any1? Wanna follow me go Encik's house n Cpt Asogan's? heheheh...Hugs & Kisses go out to my Preity Zinta, Rani Mukherjee & Karishma Kapoor...love u gals & Happy Deepavali...N to u, yes u, u noe who u are...c'mere u...u noe wat u gonna get...come, come...heheheh
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1:29 PM
Wednesday, November 10, 2004
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I'm tired now, but seems like its gonna be a great day... Hope it all works out as planned...
Well, nite duty last nite was a bummer... Ppl were gettin high, tempers lit up, but thankfully, no quarrels or any sort of fightin occured... Thank god i'm finishin soon. But i noe tat others will welcome me to stay, but doin duty with tat stupid RUDY aka 'BUDAK BUTO MISKIN' is juz not wat i'd call the time of my life...
Too sleepy to even elaborate bout the prick, so better get some rest... Dnt wanna be tired for tonite...
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10:16 AM
Tuesday, November 09, 2004
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Sum1 juz asked me "U only got 'O' levels? N only 2 credits? How can u possibly expect to get married n fend for ur family? U are nothing without at least a diploma. No respectable parents would settle for a guy without a diploma as their son in law now..."
That got me thinking. He's rite... Nothing without a diploma... I'm nothing... U cant eat LOVE... U cant buy things with LOVE... Its just being selfish to get sum1 to fall in love in love with me n end up not being able to provide her with all she need/wants. So what is the decision i have to make? Leave now before its too late? Or is it already is? Well, i dunno... It seems like its already too late on my side...
So remember every1, We are nothing without education, at least a diploma. I dont look down on those without, coz i can only see myself there now. Its better suffering alone... Dont have to drag down any1 else rite? Slogging away at work most of ur time doesnt realie form the basis of a happy relationship. U work all day for sum1 whom u rarely get a chance to see, n will maybe end up unhappy with u even... Either way, u lose... So now, i'm at the losing end...
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3:46 PM
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The more i think bout it, the more i want it. Maybe it'll never happen. We can only hope for the best. Dream bout it, tats wat i say, coz it all starts frm dreamin... Live ur dreams...
wat i juz wanna say to every1 out there is, please, stop tryin to hook me up with gals u think are gonna be good for me. I noe who i like, who i want. I have her in mind, n even if she doesnt feel the same way, tat doesnt mean u can decide wen i shld try to go for another gal... I'm not tat desperate, n no, i wont feel left out if go jln raya n be the only 1 single. So wat if i dnt have sum1 sittin beside me in the bus n at ppl's houses? I dont care... N idah, i dont need a gf juz to go to Ibu's house. so u can bring ur stupid excuse for a bf n i'll juz tag along, u kepochi... I wear black, every1 wanna wear black... Always like this...Next year, i'm hidin my baju kurung wen u guys come over... Give u 1 flying kick den u noe...hmph!
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3:02 AM
Sunday, November 07, 2004
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Well, went to geylang juz now. Too many ppl so i din even go walk ard. The throngs of ppl scare me... Wait i kena molest how rite? heheh...So i just met the other guys at Tanjong Katong n we decided to go chill at the Esplanade. we din have anythin to do xcept take pics...heheh
So its off to the esplanade to take more pics. Like bangla we all were. hahahha... But it was quite fun coz i havent gone cruisin on bikes for quite some time...
Now, i'm realie tired. Dunno y. Usually can hold out longer, so i dnt noe wats wrong with me today.
raya dah nak dekat, baju je yg dah beli. Ni nak kena gi shopping ni...hehehe
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2:47 AM
Friday, November 05, 2004
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Juz got back frm werk, n wat a day it was... was busy running ard takin pics, thanx to leslie...heheh... dunno wen he's gonna send them to me, cant wait to look at em again...*sigh*
It was a gd day in camp, but i bet it's not gonna end the same way. My big mouth had to tell ppl tat i got half the day off. Now i cant be excused frm the stupid 'meeting'. Bet my ass tat we're gonna have to go to Geylang again 2nite... Wat luck... N i'm feelin so tired... tired but happy...in a way...
I'd go thru wateva happened this mornin again if i have the chance. Maybe take more pics...heheheh...how sweetheart? can? heheh
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2:21 PM
Thursday, November 04, 2004
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Had a realie good day. RSM gave me half the day off 2moro, dunno y...hahah... I got 3 more OFFs, but decided not to take any more off, coz then this saturday will be my last day werkin... N every1 thinks i'm crazy...hahah... Yes i am... crazy... crazy bout her... N u noe wat realie made my day? I got an eyeful...she juz kept appearin in front of me, n i tell ya, how can it get any better than this? *sigh* Was smiling the whole day & even smiling now... Cant bear to leave... Sumtimes we juz wish for the impossible to happen eh? i'm a confused guy, i realie am...happy today n sad at the same time...
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8:21 PM
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
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Got thru another nite duty with MISAI. As usual, he din realie talk to me, except for warning me not to turn the desk duty area into a disco again...heheheh... He even asked every1 to sleep early...He must have been sick or sumthin, the prick... So, i did, went to bed at 11...TOO early if u ask me...
And so i had to go to the freakin police stn to "update" my report, like wat Akbar told me to do. Got there n they told me there's no such thing as "updating" ur report, it's for life... Dammit...wasted my freakin time. I cld have been home by then coz the drivers wanted to send me home. So i trudged back to camp, met the prick Akbar n told him wat happened. Then he tells me to make a new report, act as if i lost my wallet again... Wat an ass...
Now I'm REALLIE2 pissed. Juz received a call frm my bro's teacher tat he hasn't been coming to school n missing exams. Damn, i'm shakin all over now. Cant wait to see him so i can show him juz how 'pleased' i am with him. Where's a parang wen u need 1...
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11:16 AM
Tuesday, November 02, 2004
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Didnt have any entries for the weekend coz there was nothin worthy to write about. Some things are better left unsaid I guess...
The stupid parade yesterday was a freakin waste of time. That was my 1st & last parade anyway so i guess i cant realie complain. Everythin went smoothly, until i was about to go home. I was walkin thru the canteen wen MISAI called out my name. I pretended not to hear n juz walked on, not wantin to stay n have to talk to him. Just like him to send his dog Samuel to come chasing after me. Wat the hell was i s'posed to do rite? N so i went back to see him... BIG mistake. The usually noisy atmosphere of the canteen was silenced to wat u would expect how a graveyard wld be at nite wen MISAI started roaring at me for not wearin the new rank epaulette. Screw him. I could juz feel the hundreds of eyes lookin at me frm behind. Wat a way to end my shift.
Wasn't even spared this morning even though i was at the sentry post. He HAD to bring up my name during roll-call n tell every1 wat happened n all tat. But to hell with it. I got ard another 4 more days of seein his stupid face, then good riddance. Looks like i have to start clearin out my locker startin 2nite.
Juz got to thinking... Every1's making a fuss of me leaving n all, but come to think bout it, they wont even realize i'm not there after...i give 'em 3 days. hahah... Coz its true, this is NS, ppl come n go. New 1s come to replace the old 1s. The old are forgotten n u learn to live with the new. The old just becomes a distant memory. If u happen to bump into them outside, that's it then. For the ones who leave, its harder on them, coz then there is no way to replace the frens u make while servin the stupid service. The ones who carry on in camp will forget u n create a new bond with new guys. They may even forget ur name n even wat u look like. So i'm prepared for the silence of my hp, the friendly chatter ard me, n the sweet smell tat radiates frm tat sum1 who always walks past, makin the day seem easier to get thru. But i hate her, coz she makes the times pass by so fast...too fast... n then, juz like all the rest, I'm juz gonna be another memory in all their minds...
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