_____SO WhaT If IM a BITcH___

Tuesday, December 28, 2004

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I've never felt so sick before... The weather's been a bitch today. I must have swallowed around a slab of PANADOL already... *sniffle*

But however sick i am, i think i'm havin it good for myself. Been watchin the news all day(when i'm awake that is) & can't help feeling down & helpless, watching the suffering those affected by the quake & the tsunamis have to go thru... Even by bein the complete bastard that i am, my heart goes out to them... Even though there's no one I personally know affected, I can't help feelin down. Those who just lost their homes, everything they owned n those who in a matter of minutes, are turned into orphans... N those affected are mostly 3rd world countries... That makes it even worse... We over here can only imagine what they have to go thru... Let's give a moment of our time to at least send out a prayer to those ppl who needs all the help n well-wishes they can get...

Thank god my plans to go to PHUKET din pull thru... I would have been a likely casualty... *shudders* good thing i'm broke... So, having money may not always bea good thing... Having TOO much money may cause u to suffer... So, u can save urself from all the misery & give me your money... All of it or just a fraction of it, it doesn't matter... U'll be saving urself, & i wanna be the 1 to help u do that... So all of u readin this, I take cash, cheques & any form of presents... SAVE YOURSELVES!!!

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11:51 PM

Friday, December 24, 2004

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Sometimes, we just don't know what to say, how to say that we're sorry... We are just scared that the other party won't take us seriously... Well, I don't know what else to say except that I'm sorry... N if we're just gonna carry on bein this way, hardly talkin to each other, then what's the use? What DO u want? What CAN i do? Do i have to keep repeating myself, sayin "sorry" a hundred times a day, everyday? That wat u want? Enlighten me, PLEASE!! Coz i'm goin crazy thinkin bout it...

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12:58 AM

Thursday, December 23, 2004

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I wish i had never said the things i said... My words even hurt me... It's freakin me out, thinking bout the consequences of my filthy words...

I had never been involved with a gal that cares so much about me. Maybe that's the reason i'm freakin out? I dunno, i just don't... Now i feel like i don't deserve her. I promised myself before, i won't make her cry coz of me, but i did. Pls, someone, anyone, curse me, beat me up... I can't even think straight now. And with regards to my previous entry below, i didn't drink, i was just not in the mood. I really need some1 to talk to, someone who can tell me how to make things right.

Why in the world did i say such things? Maybe i'm beginning to understand why others don't like me. Being an asshole just comes naturally i guess...

To hurt something so precious is unforgiveable. I have sinned. If only i could drop dead...

I'm sorry Sweetheart... I really am...

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4:32 AM

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

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I'm an asshole...That i know... I'm an untrustworthy bastard who cannot bring himself to commit. I dont know what i have to do now. By the time u read this, i'll be at the coffeeshop drinking, that's my way of finding a solution to my problems now... Of course it wont help, but ever1 needs something or somewhere they can escape to...

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8:31 PM

Tuesday, December 14, 2004

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Didn't feel like updating just now, but felt that i just had to do it to pass the time... been a while...

Weekend was great, SUPER-OK!! Enjoyed myself silly on saturday, bummed ard at home the whole of sunday mornin n afternoon n went to town for a while at nite. So that was it...my SUPER-OK weekend. Kinda lame huh? Well, u gotta be there to know wat i'm babbling about.

Now the tough part... To any1 who'll be reading this crap i'm writing; Imagine urself in a situation like the following: U're in a relationship. N at this point of time, u're at the age where most ppl would expect u to start thinkin bout marriage ( if u haven't oredi la) But, u feel that something's missing, like a diploma. So u start thinkin bout goin back to school n getting ur dip, full-time. Even ur partner's ard ur age, n if ur partner's a gal, tat's wat makes it worse isn't it? She'll be labelled an old hag by the time u finish school. N have to wait for u to save up? Is that fair? What IF she waits n the both of u end splitting up? Wat a waste rite? But dont listen to me, gimme ur own views... Tell me wat u think...This is just sumthing i'm tryin to do to get u to spend some time making use of ur brain to think about sumthing meaningful, other than downloading porn n gossipping ur tongues off... So c'mon... tag-board's just to ur right...

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3:17 AM

Tuesday, December 07, 2004

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I have absolutely no 1 to talk to 2day n i'm missing the bitches in camp. The day just feels like such a drag...

Spent the nite at Min's place watchin vcd's n after every1 else had gone to sleep, i just bummed ard watchin cable (biasalah, kat rumah takde cable...jakun... heheheh) even woke up realie early at 11 n staightaway switched on the tv! But i had to go home at ard 2 coz i was hungry, realie2 hungry...

Is my phone spoilt? Not even a single person responded to my msgs since this mornin... hhmmm... better just leave it then... wat's the use of bringin xtra baggage whereva u're goin wen u cant even use it rite? Damn, i mite as well go out n entertain myself bumming ard outside, makin a nuisance of myself as always... haven't done that in a while...

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4:00 PM

Sunday, December 05, 2004

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Had a great weekend... Spent most of the 2 days going jalan raya! I noe wat u're thinkin..."Jalan raya? Ape dah buang tebiat ke? Dah basi lah raya beb!!" hahahah... Tats wat i said the other day when i saw ppl walkin in groups still in their baju kurung. So paiseh! Heheheh.... Kena lah aku balik! Memang padanlah dengan muka aku yg cute nak mampos ni... Cakap orang paku serpih, Mengata orang, dia yang melebih! Heheheh...

Well, even though i feel tat i'm somehow overdoin it, I still had fun. Y would'nt i be rite? Had great company, n I think her frens are okay... Gals, so they SHOULD be noisy like makcik2... Aint tat the truth...

And I would like to congratulate BALA aka FARHAN on getting married today. That's a big step u takin pal, hope u're ready for it... If u're not, then there's still time to learn. But i wish u all the best, n may everything go well... AMIN.

Now fatigue's settling in...*yawn* so i guess this is it for now...

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11:59 PM