Sunday, December 31, 2006
.:. The Bitch Day Starts With .:.
It's amazing how life works... Just when u feel ready to take on what life has to offer, something else happens n all that courage, all that happiness, all the willpower u had.. It all disappears...
My story is simple. I screwed up... Big time. I have never been alone, but i am now. I used to portray the image everyone had of me. Confident, strong, independant... But realie, I'm not, n i was scared to admit it. I did not want to let out that i'm juz another soft whimpering bastard, too much in love, but never havin the guts to say how i realie feel.
What is it about guys n their egos huh? Why do i feel that i don't deserve this, but i don't deserve anything better as well? So many questions, but no answers... So much time, but too late... So much to say, but no words...
It's gonna be the new year soon, n i'm at home, coz there's nothin for me to celebrate, 2006 is ending in a way that the only fireworks i'm longing to see is in her eyes, gazing into my eyes, tellin me how much she adores me, like she used to do...
I love her, too much...
I miss her, everyday...
.:. The Bitch day Ends .:.
11:30 PM
