Friday, January 12, 2007
.:. The Bitch Day Starts With .:.
They say it'll take time, I'll get over it...
Everything will work itself out they say...
It happens to everyone, they say...
Well, I used to say that too. To everyone who comes up to me, tellin me their problems. They who are always expecting me to give them the encouragement they needed at that point of time. To help find a solution. Mr Know-It-All...ME. I'm their Mr 'Dear Diary...' Their pillar of strength. Or sumtimes, I'm juz the guy who'll make them feel better, just sittin there wit em, listening... At the end of it, I'm the best fren they have. Their HERO...
Now where's mine?
Where's my hero to help me?
Don't keep repeating what i used to say... Don't try motivating me usin MY words... I'm disgusted by my own words... I'm disgusted at myself... I'm glad I helped, but don't remind me please, coz it just hurts me more... It takes time to heal... It will heal... We have the capacity to get through anything if we put our mind to it...
But I don't want to heal...
I don't want to get over it...
I don't want to forget...
I have the capacity, I just DON'T want to do it...
Leave me miserable, I'd take it...
It's better than healing...
Feels I'm closer to her...
God, will U be my hero?
My Prayer...
Forgive my sins & the sins of my family, my friends & every1 of us on this Earth u built for us. Keep us as distant as U can from the ravaging fires of Hell that u created. Shelter us fom the sufferings & disasters of the world. Give us strength to ignore the voices of SATAN. For all that U have given us, I thank U. I have not & will never be able to thank U enough for everything U have blessed me with. But if what I have to ask from U is a sin, then forgive me please, because this is what I really hope U will grant. Please keep her happy, bless her with love, keep her safe from all the things that will hurt her & may she someday be put amongst YOUR most treasured & loved, the way she is amongst mine. If u have to take the happiness from my life to keep her happy, I'd gladly give up all of it. I beg u to bless her with all the good things in life, even if U have to leave me with nothing. Amin.
I Love Her...
I do...
.:. The Bitch day Ends .:.
3:16 AM
