Saturday, January 13, 2007
.:. The Bitch Day Starts With .:.
Why does the feeling of emptiness overwhelm me? In the train, at work, everywhere I go... I can't stop thinkin of u... I don't know if u think about me too, but I have this strange feeling that u do... This blog is considered dead to every1 who ever read it, n maybe its the same for u too... Maybe u won't ever read what i have to say, but what's the point even if u do right? U said if we're fated to be together, we will be no matter what. But u just don't wanna give us a chance. Turning me into a stranger... Turning me into someone u're just gonna learn to hate someday, if u don't already do... Being persistent was never my forte, but I'm tryin my best now, even if i'm goin about it blindly, not realie knowing what to do...
I'm killing myself everyday...
Just watching you every morning going to work, I feel like it's a brighter day everytime, but having to watch u leave me everyday is killing me as well... so near but yet, so far... I look forward to goin to ur area every morning, but the trip back to my place seems so distant, so unwelcoming... I'm glad when it rains, coz it hides the tears i shed, cycling my way home slowly... What a nightmare of a life I'm living... A house full of people, but still empty... Surrounded by friends everyday, but still alone... Living, breathing, but also dead, lifeless...
It wasn't love at first sight, far from it... Why did u turn from someone I couldn't care less about to someone I now can't live without? Why did u fall for this bitchy guy & made him fall head over heels in love wit u? Why did u come along & become a part of his family? What is it about u that makes u seem so much more a part of my family than I ever was? Why are u the 1st person they think of inviting everywhere? It's like, I'm an outsider, but u are family... And u know what, I love it that way... I love to just sit back & watch u, mingling with them, my family. No... OUR family... U will always be a part of my family...ALWAYS.
He convinced u to give him a chance. I tried my best, but it's not that u couldn't, u just didn't want to give me that chance... U still keep my messages, so u must still think of me... Remember me however way u want to, as the biggest prick u know, as the biggest fool u know, but also remember me as the one who loved u so much, he died everyday he lived...
Resurrect me
Won't u please?
.:. The Bitch day Ends .:.
2:42 AM
