Thursday, January 04, 2007
.:. The Bitch Day Starts With .:.
If u only knew...
How much i love u...
How much i cared...
How much u mean to me...
How much i need u...
There is no point in giving excuses, I admit I am at fault. This is all my doing. The prick who wasn't content with wat he had. Wanted more. Wanted her to love him so much it hurts. It hurts all rite. Hurt so much that she left. Now what's left is just a fool... The biggest 1... On the sidewalk... Cryin... Alone...
Amidst all these tears, he's still lookin out, eyes roamin around, to see if she would appear... Stretch out her arms n like all those times, say "Come here..." N there I'd be, disappearing in her arms, where they shelter me from all the harsh cruelties of the world. Those magical hands, comforting me... " I LOVE YOU " Those 3 words that she always say... I never could find a reply to that... I never did find a word that means so much more than LOVE, as hard as i tried to. Coz wat i felt, it was more than that. So i never did give a reply. Idiot.
Will it ever be all rite? I don't know... But if she's not here with me, I don't want it to be...
Y do i feel so lonely in crowds? Y does smiling hurt so much? Y does laughing along with ur frens feel so wrong? Y do ur family members distance themselves from u?
Maybe, just maybe, alone, you're just not good enough for everyone... Ur frens slowly leave coz u stopped drinking n started praying... Ur family don't invite u to functions coz it's not u they wanna see... U're only gonna be good for the hospital 1 day from smoking too much...
But I'm still gonna be here... Waitin... Punch me, kick me, stab me, poke me, squeeze every single drop of blood out of my body, I'll still be here waiting... even if i spend my last breath waitin, it makes no diffrence, coz sumwhere along the way, i already did...
already died...
for u...
sweetheart...
.:. The Bitch day Ends .:.
3:20 AM
